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Right now, I’m experiencing quite possibly the worst kind of FOMO known to man. And for those who don’t know (but I’m guessing you do), FOMO stands for fear of missing out. Literally everyone I know, plus what feels like half the internet, is at Coachella this weekend. Meanwhile, I’m sitting here, not in the desert, not wearing the cutest outfit, not sipping on a drink, and definitely not watching The Marías perform live… which hurts just a little extra because I’m literally listening to them right now as I write this. Dramatic? Maybe. Valid? YES.
But instead of spiraling into a pit of envy and sad girl playlists, I’m trying to flip the script. I’m home. Not just at “a” home, but my home -- my childhood room, where every corner tells a different story of who I’ve been over the years. It’s kind of wild to think about how much life has happened inside these four walls. This room has grown up with me. From overflowing bins of stuffed animals, to the photo walls with high school memories, and to the random paintings I made out of pure pandemic boredom (no regrets)… it’s all still here, layered in memories.
So even though I’m not dancing under the Indio sky this weekend, I am wrapped up in a space that has quietly held so much of me. And that’s something I’ve come to really appreciate. There’s something beautiful about a place that’s been so constant, especially when life always feels like it’s moving SO fast. Coachella will be there next year, but this room right now in the way it is exactly, may not be, so I am just going to enjoy it a bit extra today.
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Wow this really resonated with me, especially the last paragraph. Having a lot of those same feelings about not being here next year.
ReplyDeleteI am also having insane Coachella FOMO right now. I have always said I would go, but it never worked out in my time at USC. I am happy that you are finding a way to flip the script on the FOMO you are feeling!
ReplyDeleteAs someone who is also experiencing the Coachellea FOMO I love how you flipped the script here. How you also described your childhood home was really reflective. Great job!
ReplyDeleteHi Ali - I played a competitive sport growing up so I was never home for the parties or dances or other big events, so I can definitely relate to the FOMO. Flipping the script is so important and even if you are not doing something that "seems" as cool as other people that does not mean that there is not joy to be found in our own experiences. I think your piece really exemplified this and I enjoyed reading it.
ReplyDeleteHi Ali! I really enjoyed your post, your writing style is extremely engaging and entertaining. I used to struggle so much with FOMO until I learned to let things go and be content with the choices I've made. My entire FYP is Coachella content so I kind of feel like I went. I think a childhood room is one of the most comforting places in the world. It has changed with you throughout the years, passing through your phases and adapting to each one.
ReplyDeleteHi Ali! I'm also experiencing Coachella FOMO, and I found this super relatable as someone who used to struggle with chronic FOMO. Flipping the switch, being present and mindful, is such great advice.
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